Well, it's certainly been a long time since I've written on here. Really lacked the motivation to do it. More generally, really lacked the motivation to do anything except alienate and hurt those close to me, and their friends as well.

So if anyone bothers to read my rubbish of a dA page, let me just apologize for being the asshole I've been for the past 8 months or so. I've made a lot of mistakes, but I've also had the opportunity to realize how much power I have. Not just to make my own decisions, but also how I can affect those around me, and those who care about those close to me.

So firstly, Argon and Amy, I am really sorry I snapped at you guys. I was so miffed at people trying to tell me how to handle my relationship that I didn't stop to think that you were just trying to help. And for that, I said some things I still fervently regret. I realize now that I need all the help and support I can get, and I squandered an opportunity to foster a wonderful friendship with you guys, and I am eternally sorry.

Lizzo, you have become one of my best friends, and you are one of the most supportive, loving, caring, and wonderful people I've come to know. I'm sorry I snapped at you too all those times when I didn't know how I could stand on my own two feet and that you were just trying to give me support. I love you like family, and I'm glad I have you as my friend.

And Haley.... my Bliss..... you mean so much to me. i can never stop apologizing for how I hurt and abandoned you last year. You really were my saving grace, and I am so sorry that I made the decisions that I did. I gave into fear and cowardice, and our relationship paid the price. But time has passed since then, and we've made a lot of new decisions since. Haley, I love you so much, I can never say it enough. I love you and I love your family. And I believe that together, nothing can stop us and what we can accomplish. And I want to stay with you and see what leads down that road. I won't falter as I did before, I promise.


.... chances are good I probably forgot about someone to apologize to and left them out. So let me say sorry in advance for that as well.


I still haven't made all the decisions I need to yet, and there are no doubt going to be times in the future where I'm put to the test once more. I feel confident that this time, with the help, love, and support of my true friends, I won't make the same mistake again.